trashboatspooky

trashboatspooky:

Well kiddos, the time has come.

I just want to say that I have absolutely loved playing Rigby. I loved meeting all you guys and getting close to some of you. It’s literally the greatest feeling in the world to me. It actually pains me to let this go, but I’m afraid if I don’t tap out now I won’t be able to appreciate the fandom the same way anymore.

Long story short, shit happens.

Life throws you incredible curve balls that serve to make you or break you. The fact that you’re not the only one playing the game is also a high contributing factor to the reason why I’m actually calling it quits. I’ve had a good run I think, but my time has played out.

Now, I’m sure you’re convinced at this point that I’m deleting.

Well that’s NOT true.

I’m merely kicking this baby over into a more personal account feel.

I debated for a long time between what I felt was right and what I should do. Honestly, it’s a hard fucking battle for me. Those of you who are closer to me know the surface of what I go through, or maybe just a tiny iota. But I feel that in respect to others, I’m going to quietly decline the future of this blog as a Rigby account.

It was a tough decision, and I’m sure the repercussion of my choice will come back to bite me in the ass at a later point. But, I have to do this. To keep my comfortably numb status, my walls have to be maintained at an all-time high. I let those walls slip and now I am paying for it. The consequences of opening up and letting yourself feel are ungodly. Though, I honestly never thought I could feel in such a way again, so perhaps I’ll learn something when this is all said and done. I digress.

There are a handful of you that I truly absolutely adore, and if you are ever up for a chatzy rp or just some random paras, I’d be more than happy to oblige a chat. However, in light of recent event and my own sort of “awakening” if you will, I just can’t continue this solely as an “RP blog”.

I know this is all quite passive-aggressive, but I’m saving my own ass here. I can’t continue to allow myself to sink further in, for the result of that would only serve to cause myself an immense bout of pain. So for the sake of saving face, I withdraw my Rigby from the running.

After Halloween is over and all, I might just chunk him over to a side blog just for when I’m feeling particularly sentimental or want to headcanon it up or whatever. Just for my own benefit.

I hold high value on my blogs. So, I guess letting go isn’t my forte.

If you’re still with me here, I just want to say that I don’t regret anything. None of the choices, feelings, or actions I have had throughout my run with Riggs. I care deeply for all of you guys and I wish there was some way I could maintain composure in all of this so I could further my journey in the fandom with you all. But sometimes you can’t always have what you want in life. Growing up, I’ve had to learn that the hard way. Life isn’t easy and it sure as hell isn’t always fun. This was supposed to be my escape.

Like I said, things don’t always end up how you want them to.

TLDR; - People suck. This blog is no longer a Rigby RP blog. I love you guys. I’m not deleting.